My mum.
Who died on New Years eve from a short but intense illness with cancer.
Just 7 weeks after diagnosis (we thought we had 4-5 months).
Much more sudden than we, or the medical profession thought.
She died peacefully in her sleep – a relief from the pain and suffering caused by a rare and aggressive cancer.

I shall miss our phone calls, our walks on the beach and paddles in the sea – in all weathers, either bare footed or in wellies.

I’ve planted tulips (in tears) that I knew you would never see.  This year I did grow chrysanthemums that you loved, you did see me get the gardening bug, you saw your grandchild grow to be a teenager.

I’ve lost one of my dedicated blog readers too.

When I wrote these pages I often had you in mind. 
I’m writing this in advance, before I travel down to the West Midlands to make all the necessary arrangements that are required.

I’ve recorded lots of Elvis, Buddy Holly and more rock ‘n’ roll to give you a good send off. 

Miss you loads xxx

9 thoughts on “

  • 03/01/2015 at 11:14 pm

    Oh, I am so sorry Helen. Big Hugs! I am glad you had some time with your mum even though it meant a lot of travelling back and forth.
    Let the tears flow when they come and don't fret what others think.
    Much love to you and your family,

  • 04/01/2015 at 5:23 am

    Iam saddened for your loss.
    Loads of healing you and your family
    Much love to surround you
    And hugs to lean into
    Bear (belinda)

  • 04/01/2015 at 2:46 pm

    Some very difficult days ahead for you. Wishing you strength and thinking of you.

  • 04/01/2015 at 8:46 pm

    Helen may the music you listen to as you travel, and the memories of so much goodness in your life with your Mother be the balm to wrap you peacefully as you tend to difficult tasks. May you always have the bright light of your Mother's shining self as a picture that brings comfort to you. Condolences as these next pieces of the journey move forward.
    I hold you and your family in the light….Kristin

  • 04/01/2015 at 9:10 pm

    I regularly follow your blog and I'm so sorry to hear about your Mum.
    Thinking of you at this difficult time.

  • 07/01/2015 at 2:08 pm

    What a lovely photo, Helen – I see you have not lost your knack in all the distress and upset – a beautiful pic – Anne

  • 09/01/2015 at 6:21 pm

    sorry to hear your sad news.It's a releif that she's no longer in pain – but so hard to have her leave you.
    Thinking of you.

  • 12/01/2015 at 6:55 pm

    So sorry.I also lost my mother in November so know a little of the loss you are feeling.The best advice I have received is to be gentle to yourself and rest when you feel overwhelmed.Take care

  • 18/01/2015 at 5:05 am

    I'm very sorry to hear of your mum's passing Helen, I understand where you are at the moment, I too lost my mum to cancer last year. They leave a huge hole in our hearts, but never truly leave us, and although she can't read your blog anymore she will know everything you're doing and look over and guide you always. Cherish the memories, grieve as you need, and give your heart time to heal x

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